snakes and lizards hung from the red rooms of your walls
i kept having to hide all the crystal balls
orange and black fabric grew out of curtains and behind posters
we all wanted to get closer and closer
writhing,,, the dark green snakes were
on the mossy carpet
treaded by too many webbed feet
they treaded in black wet leaves from the garden
leaves that smelt quite sweet
thin orange paint glanced with smokey perfumes
inside some darkness and pinch of gloom
"but you guys forgot the ocean too soon.."

i wished that place was spaceship they saw it as
i wish didn't see like such a spaz
maybe this isn't alcatraz
maybe im being too sad
can't be that bad

then when i met Vertivert, she told me a new story
almost turned me inside out
i heard the inside-outside shouts
when she sang i saw both our glorys
saw the glowing glistening forgeries fury
the darkness was still damp
saw the eyes glow, then
fell off my ramp
to something truer when-
the dank was still a swamp
but crows eyes came into mine
and i had to re-align
seeing too many different levels of the divine

the magpies brought me the sign
"stop collecting gemstones!-
its time for you to shine
start now or never will thee let thyself be thine
The Y of Pythagoras is momentary
As the moon rises
So does blood of tree
So uncloack your crystals for us all to see
Fox of fire and Owl of keys
Coniunctio universally,
Mystic pirate of shadows free"

back i went to the forest of trees
after fearing loathing loving everything of me
now found in Nature something
night day dusk and dawn
criaturas + frog spawn
Thank you Lady Vertivert for making me borne
I Breathe in and breathe out, ready for a new morn


















(note: i want to say that L.Vertivert is an essential oil that helped me a lot so far but also a pseudonym for Aya)